I’m always surprised at God’s continued faithfulness, but I guess I shouldn’t be. He continues providing for me in ways that are above and beyond my expectations. Currently I have $5,065 in my account and I have $300 that someone donated which I need to send in. That brings me to
$5,365. $1,100 worth of pledges have been made, and if those are fulfilled I will have been given
$6,465. When I see those numbers my jaw wants to drop to the floor. For so long I worried and questioned whether or not I was doing the right thing. I doubted whether or not I was seeking the Lord and following His lead, or if I had tricked myself into believing this is where He wanted me to be.
I wondered if the Lord really was big enough and strong enough to provide. After all of my doubting and questioning, He hasn’t failed me or abandoned me.
He is showing me more clearly than ever that He wants me here. He has a plan and a purpose. In three weeks I’ll be in Georgia for training camp, and He isn’t surprised that things are finally coming together. He isn’t shocked that it’s actually happening. From the beginning of this journey He knew my fears and struggles. He knew my weaknesses and doubts. Yet His strength is made even more evident because of my weakness. My failures serve to make His name look even more powerful. My weakness glorifies Him even further. I’m excited and nervous about this adventure. In many ways I’m really hesitant, and there are days when I question why in the world I signed up for this. But I have to stop and rememer something. God is choosing to use me. I don’t completely understand why, but He chooses to use broken vessels. He knows what this year holds and just as I have seen His power in mighty ways these past few months, I know I will continue to see Him working in and around me this coming year. Praise God! Let Him and Him alone be glorified for the ways in which He has provided.
1 Peter 2:9 – But you are a
chosen people, a
royal priesthood, a
holy nation, a
people belonging to God, that you may
declare the praises of him who
called you out of darkness into his
wonderful light.
